The beginning of it
It is 7:30 when I wake up. The first thing in my mind is that I just need to go outside when the sun comes up. I mean, right after coffee. Then the thought comes through - if I am going outside to watch the sunrise I might just as well take the camera with me to capture it. And since then I will have some photos of my own, I could finally start writing my blog. What is the reason not to anymore? I feel like I probably should figure out some things before I do it or take an online course about it or something. I mean, what if people on the internet are just mean about things? Can I take it?
I take a deep breath in and a deep breath out. For so long fear and uncertainty has kept me from expressing myself. I wonder, how many people feel the same? Probably many. What might be the potential of us if we no longer allow the fear of being judged hold us back? I decide that as a matter in fact I can take it. What it is that I cannot take anymore, is that I waste my life doing things that don´t really feel like me, my life. So here goes nothing!
It must be like at least -25° celsius degrees and even though it is very cold, it is also very beautiful outside! It wasn’t a clear sky as I had hoped for, but the clouds actually made a really misty feel in the air, and the light behind the clouds was just soft and kind. The feeling of it was as if I was still dreaming, not really awake just yet. The snow made scrunchy voices with every step, but otherwise the city was pretty quiet and there was no one else on the ice.
There is beauty to be found in a city as well, but for me my dream is to live surrounded by nature. I will later on write a post about this, but I do feel a bit trapped in this situation of mine. I live in Jyväskylä because I have yet to graduate from University of Jyväskylä where I will get my masters degree in primary and special needs teacher education. I have no idea if that was the correct way to put it but you get the point I hope. Anyway, I have about one year and a half left with that. After I graduate, I hope to move closer to nature to a much smaller place (even though Jyväskylä isn’t that big of a city, really) and renovate an old place with my fiancé. I hope I get to share that with you guys some day!
I can’t wait to do this blog now that I finally got started with it! I intend to post a text at least once a month here, and in time I want to make vlogs as well. I want to capture nature in my photos and paintings, and those will also come available for you to purchase hopefully in time. In the next post I intend to tell you more about my life and those dearest to me.
All the best! <3
